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… love you more than words can say …

xoXOxo,

Sanni


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This brandnew MEME was created by my incredible friend Barb. She´s the limit! Visiting her is always worthwhile. Please stop by the Heads Or Tails HQ for more participants.

BEGINNING

© 2005 Sanni

There was a period in my life when I felt completely incomplete, asking myself:

If a whole is something that has a beginning, a middle and an end…
what then, am I?

On the one hand I lived in a pretty cool flat share with my best friend Chris. I found myself surrounded by wonderful friends (counting my family in). I´ve had a very good job, very well paid - and our team was a “little family”. The first time for ages I was close to be satisfied with myself. My weight was on a “ok-level”, the last Crohn´s flare-up was ages ago, but…
… on the other hand… my relationship… sucked big time. The guy I was dating didn´t give a shit didn´t care too much as much as I wished about me. Everything and everyone else seemed to be more important to him. It was elsewise when our relationship started and in retrospection my own behavior might be a reason for the situation. I withdrawed more and more after his confession (he had cheated on me while he was in a jolly mood drunk - oh, what a fine “excuse”!) - should have broke-up instead of wasting time trying again. My self-confidence shrunk every day (”Sanni, you were my dreamgirl… if you´d lose 15kg (33lb)!” - Ed. note: My scale showed 143lb that morning. He wanted me to be a scrag of 88lb?!?!) and I started to paint again, when I was alone, not showing my paintings to anyone. However, one day, in January 2005, I tried to express my feelings with watercolor and carbon…

What am I? I am not half the [insert positive attributes here] girl I was.

If a whole is something that has a beginning, a middle and an end…
what then, am I?

Completely incomplete…

I realized it was time to leave… time for a new beginning.

Today I´m slaphappy, feeling complete. I´m a bitch, I´m a lover, I´m a child, I´m a mother, I´m a sinner, I´m a saint… I do not feel ashamed.

Frank is the best “better half” (remember the “little family” of co-workers I mentioned before? That´s where we met) I can imagine, our little son Luis makes me proud every day. I´m owned by a Furry Diva - and my little family overwhelms me with love every day.

We´re still surrounded by wonderful friends, both old and new ones (the ex mentioned above did undergo a radical change. Today he´s Luis godfather, plus the many cyber-friends I met since I started blogging. Love ya all from the bottom of my heart!)

My beloved parents became proud grandparents.

Of course I miss Chris every now and then. He moved to another town with his girlfriend. The last time we saw each other was on his birthday on Dec 16th, 2006. It felt kind of strange to celebrate my birthday without him this year. The first time for 20 years he was not here. The reason might be his vocational re-training is keeping him too busy (That´s the lame excuse I came up with for myself to protect me)… or the reason might be his girlfriend who hated me from the very first moment she saw me (That´s what my friends assume)… or maybe he simply doesn´t like me anymore… but he skipped Luis christening and 1st birthday party as well. Can´t imagine he would carry forward negative feelings about me on a baby… plus I don´t know what could have been the reason why he should have changed his feelings about me and our friendship. However, the answer is gone with the wind… and I try not to bother myself with this anymore, just wishing all the best for his new beginning.

We don´t have as much money as we used to have, but we don´t care. My “new job” isn´t well paid in tangible goods - I´m (over)paid with baby-laughter =). Can´t imagine anything better.

Life´s got a meaning. Could life be any better? No way! I´m sure I will never ever again be in need of a new beginning.

Love & PEACE ♥,

Sanni

And now…
… our moment of Homer J.:

Note to self: Stop. Doing. Anything.


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Jun 19

… put a record on, I wanna dance with my baby! Germany joins the heat! Babes, it´s so freakin´ hot in herre… our A/C and even the huge Honeywell ventilator do overtime… nonetheless the icecubes are melting in my iced coffee. Our Mini Cooper Convertible is waiting to take us for a topless roadtrip. Beating the heat… Hoping in the car, blasting your favorite music, is probably one of the nicest feelings in the world. It sure is for me. All I need is Frank, a picnic basket and some good music, like…

Sanni´s Top 50 Cruising Songs:

  1. Hey ya! ~ The Boss Hoss
  2. Summer Wine ~ Ville Valo & Natalia Avelon
  3. It´s My Life ~ Bon Jovi
  4. In The Summertime ~ Mungo Jerry
  5. Rama Lama Ding Dong ~ Rocky Sharpe and the Replays
  6. Obsesión ~ Aventura
  7. Canned Heat ~ Jamiroquai
  8. Eve of Destruction ~ Barry McGuire
  9. Turn! Turn! Turn! ~ The Byrds
  10. I Heard It Through The Grapevine ~ Marvin Gaye
  11. Nump ~ Linkin´Park
  12. Lowrider ~ Cypress Hill
  13. One of Us ~ Joan Osborne
  14. Crazy ~ Gnarls Barkley
  15. Fresh ~ Kool & The Gang feat Liberty X
  16. Down Under ~ Men At Work
  17. Hollaback Girl ~ Gwen Stefani
  18. Who Knew ~ P!NK
  19. Bitch ~ Meredith Brooks
  20. Bittersweet Symphony ~ The Verve
  21. Every You, Every Me ~ Placebo
  22. You Blew Me Off ~ Bare Jr
  23. Come Undone Robbie Williams
  24. Hips Don´t Lie ~ Shakira feat Wyclef Jean
  25. Butterfly ~ Crazy Town
  26. Ain’t It Funny ~ Jennifer Lopez feat Ja Rule
  27. The Tide Is High ~ Blondie
  28. Africa ~ Toto
  29. Set Adrift on Memory Bliss ~ PM Dawn
  30. Surfin´ USA ~ Beach Boys
  31. Summer In The City ~ Joe Cocker
  32. Daydream Believer ~ The Monkees
  33. Theme From Shaft ~ Isaac Hayes
  34. Play That Funky Music ~ Wild Cherry
  35. Le Freak ~ Chic
  36. Knock on Wood ~ Amii Stewart
  37. My Sharona ~ The Knack
  38. When Doves Cry ~ Prince
  39. Lean On Me ~ Club Nouveau
  40. Got My Mind Set on You ~ George Harrison
  41. Wishing Well ~ Terence Trent D’Arby
  42. No Diggity ~ Blackstreet featuring Dr. Dre
  43. Drop It Like It’s Hot ~ Snoop Dogg featuring Pharrel
  44. Wild One ~ Bobby Rydell
  45. Mustang Sally ~ Wilson Pickett
  46. Stuck In The Middle With You ~ Stealer’s Wheel
  47. Rollin´~ Limp Bizkit
  48. Praise You ~ Fatboy Slim
  49. Drive My Car ~ The Beatles
  50. Wild Thing ~ Tone LocNow please cast your vote about the kind of car you prefer… and what are your favorite car tunes? Please let me know in the comment section (don´t have to be your Top 50 *LOL*)!

    Opinion Polls & Market Research

    See ya’all soon!!!
    ~xoXOxo~

    Sanni

    And now…
    … our moment of Homer J.:

    Homer: I’ll never wiggle my bare butt it public again
    Lisa: I’d like to believe that this time, I really would.





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Welcome to SPSH #51 , Saturday Photo Scavenger Hunt #14 for me, Ladies and Gentlemen!
This week´s theme is “WATER”.

I won the 1st prize in a Design Contest a few days ago… I got no idea how I deserved this (Honestly *grin*) - but I love the amazing price I recieved: A Graphic Tablet. It´s so much fun to play around with the tablet! But: Where´s the relation of the Graphic Tablet and WATER? Well… I usually wanted to post a picture of our son Luis today.

“1st contact: Luis and Open Water” - taken during our unforgetable summer vacation at Corfu, Greece in September 2006. Here´s the Original:

1st contact: Luis and Open Water (before)… and this is how it looks like after I played with the Graphic Tablet for a while:

1st contact: Luis and Open Water (after)

Hope you like it! =)

Thanks for stopping by,

And now…
… our moment of Homer J.:

Homer: I am so smart! I am so smart! S-M-R-T! I mean S-M-A-R-T…




Corfu

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