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“My Heart - My Soul - My Untamed Life - For 1 Second With You”

Acryl on canvas, 1m x 1m, 2005, painted by me

I don´t know if this original is original enough, that´s why I add this:

The original brush I painted this pictures with *wink*

Bonus:

Do you remember Octo-Pussy? Here´s the promised update. Congrats to all of you who bet she´ll shrink. That´s exactly what she did. But she didn´t say “Heureka!” as she shrunk. It was a long-running process. Sad, isn´t it? But Luis and Octo-Pussy a bunch of fun. =)

Have a great and relaxing weekend, peeps!

And now…

… our moment of Homer J.:

Marge: Homer, the plant called. They said if you don’t show up tomorrow don’t bother showing up on Monday.
Homer: Woo-hoo. Four-day weekend.

This brandnew MEME was created by my incredible friend Barb. She´s the limit! Visiting her is always worthwhile. Please stop by the Heads Or Tails HQ for more participants.

BEGINNING

© 2005 Sanni

There was a period in my life when I felt completely incomplete, asking myself:

If a whole is something that has a beginning, a middle and an end…
what then, am I?

On the one hand I lived in a pretty cool flat share with my best friend Chris. I found myself surrounded by wonderful friends (counting my family in). I´ve had a very good job, very well paid - and our team was a “little family”. The first time for ages I was close to be satisfied with myself. My weight was on a “ok-level”, the last Crohn´s flare-up was ages ago, but…
… on the other hand… my relationship… sucked big time. The guy I was dating didn´t give a shit didn´t care too much as much as I wished about me. Everything and everyone else seemed to be more important to him. It was elsewise when our relationship started and in retrospection my own behavior might be a reason for the situation. I withdrawed more and more after his confession (he had cheated on me while he was in a jolly mood drunk - oh, what a fine “excuse”!) - should have broke-up instead of wasting time trying again. My self-confidence shrunk every day (”Sanni, you were my dreamgirl… if you´d lose 15kg (33lb)!” - Ed. note: My scale showed 143lb that morning. He wanted me to be a scrag of 88lb?!?!) and I started to paint again, when I was alone, not showing my paintings to anyone. However, one day, in January 2005, I tried to express my feelings with watercolor and carbon…

What am I? I am not half the [insert positive attributes here] girl I was.

If a whole is something that has a beginning, a middle and an end…
what then, am I?

Completely incomplete…

I realized it was time to leave… time for a new beginning.

Today I´m slaphappy, feeling complete. I´m a bitch, I´m a lover, I´m a child, I´m a mother, I´m a sinner, I´m a saint… I do not feel ashamed.

Frank is the best “better half” (remember the “little family” of co-workers I mentioned before? That´s where we met) I can imagine, our little son Luis makes me proud every day. I´m owned by a Furry Diva - and my little family overwhelms me with love every day.

We´re still surrounded by wonderful friends, both old and new ones (the ex mentioned above did undergo a radical change. Today he´s Luis godfather, plus the many cyber-friends I met since I started blogging. Love ya all from the bottom of my heart!)

My beloved parents became proud grandparents.

Of course I miss Chris every now and then. He moved to another town with his girlfriend. The last time we saw each other was on his birthday on Dec 16th, 2006. It felt kind of strange to celebrate my birthday without him this year. The first time for 20 years he was not here. The reason might be his vocational re-training is keeping him too busy (That´s the lame excuse I came up with for myself to protect me)… or the reason might be his girlfriend who hated me from the very first moment she saw me (That´s what my friends assume)… or maybe he simply doesn´t like me anymore… but he skipped Luis christening and 1st birthday party as well. Can´t imagine he would carry forward negative feelings about me on a baby… plus I don´t know what could have been the reason why he should have changed his feelings about me and our friendship. However, the answer is gone with the wind… and I try not to bother myself with this anymore, just wishing all the best for his new beginning.

We don´t have as much money as we used to have, but we don´t care. My “new job” isn´t well paid in tangible goods - I´m (over)paid with baby-laughter =). Can´t imagine anything better.

Life´s got a meaning. Could life be any better? No way! I´m sure I will never ever again be in need of a new beginning.

Love & PEACE ♥,

And now…
… our moment of Homer J.:

Note to self: Stop. Doing. Anything.

The girls challenged me to play -

The sheer beauty Maria over at BAAHHH!!! wants to know 8 random facts about me. I hope you can stand more facts about me

1.)My sense of humor tends to be sarcastic in nature.
2.)I´m a nightowl - doing my best work at night while the world around sleeps.
3.)Derivation of #2.): Me and my body are satisfied with 4 hours of sleep.
4.)I got 3 of my piercings left - there were 7 more before.
5.)In August 2005 I returned to painting after a 10-year hiatus.
6.)Fireworks - oh, how I love to watch them… The last time I watched one was last Saturday. A Japanese firework celebrating the Japan Day in Duesseldorf, Germany. Oooooooh! Aaaaaaah! Woooooow! So so freaking beautiful!
7.)I´m a bookworm… and an idiot. While I was pregnant I got a kind of “sorting flash”: All our books are sorted by their spine colors. This makes it pretty hard to find the book we´re searching for. [Note to self: Adjust this!]
8.)Luis actually is proud owner of 8 milk teeth - that´s seven more than me. Honestly: I still got one milk tooth! I guess this is the most weird anatomic attribute of my body… this and the third arm growing out of my head.

The wonderful Annelisa was curious about how my Jackson Pollock pic may look like. HA! That was great one. I highly recommend: Blogosphere - do a JacksonPollock!!!

Annelisa came up with another great posting: How I Started Blogging

While I was pregnant I wanted to design a homepage for our little baby. I´ve had no idea about css and html - so I absorbed a few books about webdesign and created a homepage for Luis. Before, just in case I would have been too blonde to design a website from scratch, I signed up at Blogger. The babyblog is still in my account - but it was never used… but I liked the idea of writing down my thoughts: I created Coffee2go.

It was google: I entered the keyword “blog” - and guess which blogging provider came up ;)

Besides my inner circle in “real life”? That´s a bit difficult to answer. When I was forced kindly invited to switch to New Blogger all my former comments fell in the John. They were turned into “posted by anonymus”. Thanks again, Blogger. I can remember Bond visiting Coffee2go while we were having the first Blogblast For Peace. We still visit each other - I take seat on his comfy Big Leather Couch as often as I can.

Ha! That´s a piece of cake! I Coffee2go in GERMAN - just for myself. I found out about the Blogblast when I was playing with Blogger´s “Next Blog Button” - unbelievable, but true. I new immediately I have to participate - so I posted a Dona Nobis Pacem post… in English, of course. Since most of my current visitors speak English, Coffee2go is English, too.

I never ever thought Coffee2go could develop in this way. Me, I´m a lucky one. I´ve found lots of wonderful blogging pals from all over the world… plus I never imagined Coffee2go to become so popular - to express it “technical”: I´m among technorati´s top 2k bloggers.

Thanks a lot to all of you!

My current blogs are:

Coffee 2 go - I´m an egomaniac - having a blog is not enough excuse to talk about myself *grin*

The Evil Blogger Twin - Thanks to split personality I´ve got an evil blogging twin. She doesn´t mince any matters, says and does everything I don´t have the heart to. Oh, wait… I guess this is not really MY blog ;)

The Furry Diva - We celebrated Jersey´s 5th birthday yesterday. She´s our chocolate labrador diva. Every diva needs her own platform. So the blog was my birthday present for her. She *whoof*s and I´m her typing secretary.

Pimp Your Blog - I love to design blog templates and to make over existing blogs. I´ve opened the Pimp Your Blog Shop on 2007, June 1st - and there so so had to be a matching blog to the shop. =D

There is another secret blog, just for myself, where I am writing my German short-stories, publishing my comics and stuff like that… plus about 50something blogs to show off my blog layouts in action. Yes, I know… blogger must think I´m insane - I´ve created them all during 2 weeks. Yup, google knows it all

If you´re interested you´ll find those layouts at the Pimp Your Blog Shop:

You know you want me to be your pimp! =D
Don´t miss the Grand Opening Sale!

Let´s make a deal: I won´t invite anyone to play today. Oh, I can hear your relief…, BUT:

1.) Feel free to grab one of those ideas and post yourself
2.) If you haven´t done it yet:
Hop over to Mimi, choose your Peace Globe and let it fly tomorrow! Joining The Blogblast For Peace is a sign of unity showing your hope for worldwide peace - and, like it happend to me, it will connect you with many other fellow bloggers in the world!
3.) Baguette, chocolate or Espresso anyone?

Love&PEACE ♥

And now…
… our moment of Homer J.:

Note to self: Stop. Doing. Anything.